Showing posts with label Sleep. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Sleep. Show all posts

Thursday, December 1, 2011

Deny the Acceptance of Failure

          The end of the semester is upon us. For the next two weeks I will do nothing but study and work. Perhaps I will try to squeeze in some sleep but only a few hours a night. Last year, I did not stress about finals. I earned high scores in my classes so the finals would not affect me too much but everything has changed. My classes are way more intense this semester, I’m working more often and my personal life is a mess. I knew classes would be more difficult this semester because I am taking all upper division courses but I had no idea that my life outside of academia would be so stressful. I found myself excusing my laziness and lack of motivation because of my breakup but that only hindered my success. I procrastinated too much, slept too much, and complained way too much this semester. Everyone has their own problems that they need to deal with but mine just seemed more important than school for a few weeks. Although my ignorance probably hurt my grades, I did the best I could considering my situation. Now I must get through the final two weeks of hell and attempt to muster up the courage to succeed. I’ve found that success takes courage; one must be brave to fully explore knowledge and succeed in this world. I will “Deny the acceptance of failure.”

Taciturn
adj.
Habitually untalkative or silent (n: taciturnity)
Temperate
adj.
Exercising moderation and self-denial; calm or mild (n: temperance)

Wednesday, September 28, 2011

Wednesday

        Today was long and tiring and it is only 5 pm. I woke up late for my 9 am class and rather than jumping out of bed as soon as realized the time, I laid there peacefully almost appreciating my incompetent alarm. Lately my emotions have been so inconsistent. Some days I feel strong and ready to begin my newly single life by planning extravagant trips to Europe and sculpting a new body at the gym. Then other days I mope around the house listening to classic love ballads and explaining, in detail, to my friends why I will never experience that kind of love again. I am grateful that I have people in my life who listen to me scream along to Kelly Clarkson’s “Since You’ve Gone,” then morosely whisper the lyrics to Tracy Chapman’s “Love’s Proof.” My wild emotions are somewhat comical and make for decent stories but they eventually wear me down until I collapse into bed earlier than the average fifth-grader. With time my emotions should steady and my energy level will rise but until then, caffeine will be my greatest ally.

volatile
adj.
Explosive; fickle (n: volatility).

voracious
adj.
Craving or devouring large quantities of food, drink, or other things. She is a voracious reader.